Ugh, lately I've kinda been down. She's back. I still have feelings for her. It's unrequited. It's hard being around her. I cried last night. Oh well, I'll get over it somehow.

I'm bored. I wish I had someone to talk to today, everyone's busy working or something something.

Oh, I played the piano yesterday. Hikari actually went smoothly, but every other song was just messed up. I guess I'll just have to put that career on the bookshelf and only bring it out when I'm really really bored.

Day ten: Memories, Ayreon

[Best Friend] It's been 10 days
It shouldn't last this long
The doctors' mystified
Nothing's physically wrong...

[Wife] But maybe inside his head
He's struggling to survive
Would it help if we talked to him?
Bring him back to life...

[Best Friend and Pride] Do you remember that time
We were showing off our brand new flashy bikes
[Wife and Love] You looked so fine
Until you both fell over and then started to cry!
[Best Friend and Pride] Do you recall that day
Fearlessly we climbed the highest tower
[Wife and Love] Then you became afraid
Too scared to climb down you stayed up there for hours!
[Best Friend and Pride] Do you remember that time?
[Wife and Love] Do you recall that day?

[Wife and Love] Do remember that time
Alone at last, naked by the fire
[Best Friend and Pride] Then all your friends came by,
They rushed in the room and you had no time to hide
[Wife and Love] Do you recall that day,
You proposed to me fell down to your knee
[Best Friend and Pride] You didn't know what to say,
So she knelt down to for she thought you'd lost your keys!
[Wife and Love] Do you remember that time?
[Best Friend and Pride] Do you recall that day?

[Passion] Can you see her light
Shining through the black
She's reaching out to you
What's holding you back?

[Reason] Can you feel her warmth
Glowing on your skin
Don't repress the memories
Let them all in...

List of exams:
Biochemistry - Done
Psychological Biology - Forgot to attend to
Calculus 2 - Done (probably flunked it though)
History of psychology - Done
Social psychology - Done
Electromagnetism - Done
Development psychology - Done
Chemistry - Done
Calculus 3 (Math 3) - 02.06.2008
Economics (Math for economics) - 06.06.2008

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Ok, I'm cold. The window was open all night, and somehow I was in the nude when I woke up, but I clearly remember that I had something on me when I went to bed. So some strange things must've happened while I was asleep. Anywho, I'm nearly done with my exams. Only two left, one tomollow and one this following friday. Then I'm going home.

Yesterday and the day before yesterday I started rewatching Minami-ke and Baccano! Fun fun fun. Haruka is the hotness. Aaaaaaand, while preparing for my exams, I've started listening to Ayreon again, The Human Equation is such a great album, with LaBrie and that Mikael guy singing ballads.

Oh and yeah, I started playing the game Rain Slick: Precipice of Darkness, it's so funny. It reminds me of the Escape from monkey island series. You guys should try it, you can get the demo for free at gamespot or gamer.no.

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Edit 04062008

I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And headed straight..into the shining sun
- D. Gilmoure

Yesterday I bought manga, lotsa manga! Samurai Champloo, Death Note, Yotsuba, Strawberry 100%, Samurai Deeper Kyo and Hikaru no Go. And today I'm shipping'em off home. Even though I've read all of them at least 2 times each, I just had to buy them, they're so fekkin' good! Marita is leaving today, going back to Karmøy. This means I'm all alone in the apartment for.. at least 3 days. Boring, and there's noone to poke on.
Lately the weathers been nice, so I've wanted to play some hoops, but there's noone to play with! WAH! It's so boring being a social delinquent and a poker degenerate. Meh. Right now I'm playing David Gilmour on the speakers, trying to play it higher than the neighbours, so I don't have to listen to their trance..-computermademusic.
I'm bored,
bored,
bored,
bored.

.. bored. Maybe I should go to the movies, but there's noone to go with and going alone isn't any fun since I can't discuss the movie afterwards with someone.
Meh, back to Gilmour.

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Eidt 09.06.2008

I guess I was just another useless guy afterall. I should probably just give up on my dreams. Just like before, I thought I had a grip on my own life, but.. nevermind.

Oh, I remember now, I still got this thing called a journal.
It's been ages since I last updated this thing. Did I tell you guys my camera died? Well it drowned this summer (summer of 07). Poor thing. And yes, it was my fault. I murdered it. I still feel bad about it.

The last couple of months I've been trying to stop selfsabotaging. It's kinda hard, since my whole life is based on that principle; if something good happens to you, wreck it. And you know what? I almost had it a while, theeeen SHE got ENGAGED(!!), WTF?! That was just messed up, messed me up all over again. So I'm back to my usual self again, wrecking absolutely everything I get over. I don't know. Kinda feel emo right now, yup!

And yeah, lately I've been rewatching Miyazaki's great wonders again, they're sooooo friggin' good! Have you guys seen them? I don't know if any of you guys I used to poke or talk to are going to read this, since it's been helluva long time since we last spoke, but, hey, I'm still alive? If you guys're out there and reading this;

"Hello, is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me.. is there anyone home..?"

Heart,
Gia

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Edit 09.05.2008

Lately I've been searching around after some four-leaf clovers or even five-leaf clovers.
So far I've only found one four-leaf clover. It's kinda phun phun. Just laying in the grass for a couple of hours reading my manga, then get up and search a bit, theeeeeen fall down again and continue reading my manga, and so on and so on. Oh, and yeah, if you're in Trondheim, feel free to join me! It's quite giving! WOAH!

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Edit 18.05.2008

It was that day again. Merh.
BUT! The good thing was that I didn't have to wear pants before, just now. WOOOH!
I've got theese exams frequently popping up out of nowhere, this following monday I've got an exam in Psychological Biology 0900-1200, theeeeen I've got this Calculus exam 1500-1900. I'm a little bit stressed since I haven't started on the Calculus part yet. Or, I've looked through the book, and there's a couple of chapters I didn't even know existed (that's what you get for stop doing your homework when you've got enough approved). Oh well, I'll leave it to luck. After all, I've got a four leaf clover, though it hasn't worked yet, I guess it's saving it's luck till monday, before unleashing it's ero-powah!

Ooooh! And and and, I finally beat my 7 year old cousins high score in "Yoshi touch and go DS". I'm so fekkin' proud. I actually had to draw the whole map, and lay out strategies on how to get bonus points. I just don't get it how my cousin managed to get 788 by jut playing it randomly. Meh,
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Edit 20.05.2008

List of exams:
Biochemistry - Done
Psychological Biology - Forgot to attend to
Calculus 2 - Done (probably flunked it though)
History of psychology - Done
Social psychology - Done
Electromagnetism - Done
Development psychology - Done
Chemistry - 30.05.2008
Calculus 3 (Math 3) - 02.06.2008
Economics (Math for economics) - 06.06.2008

Ooooooh, I'm kinda worn out already. I need some love, too bad Okuni-san's only an anime character.

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Edit: 30.05.2008

Bleeeeeatch. I've been up for .. i don't know, some 20-30-ish hours now. Been watching Hikaru no Go, One Piece, House and World poker tour. I totally forgot that I've got this exam, in about.. 3 hours or so. Damnit. I'm so fekked. I was aiming for an A on this exam by preparing 2-3 days beforehand, and now I don't get to prepare at all. I'm considering going to sleep for an hour or so, but I'm afraid I won't make it to the exam if I do. Iiiiii'm so tired. I wish I had somebody to rant to right now, I'd poke'em to death. .. poke'em, that reminds me, I have to play some Hold'em..
.. now.